Monday, May 9, 2011

Belated Mother's Day

Yesterday was Mother's Day.  It is not one of my favorite days of the year because I lost my Mom almost 10 years ago.

Yesterday I had lunch with a friend who had also lost his mother a number of years ago.  We discussed our mothers and how we dealt with the day.  He challenged me to recall a happy Mother's Day.  And sadly I could not remember one.  I could remember a Mother's Day that was really sad but not a happy one.

The realization of not being able to remember a happy Mother's Day was disheartening.  It is possible that because of mental issues that I deal with could have buried some of my memories too deep for me to recall.  Or they could have masked the good memories.

I have no doubt that I loved my Mom very much and I miss her deeply.  Yesterday I asked God to give my Mom a hug from me and tell her that I love her and miss her.

I'm not sure if I want to dig around in my memories of past Mother's Day.  Maybe it is just best to think of today and let God deal with my past.

I'm just glad I had the mother I did and thank God that He knew which mom was the best for me.

Belated Happy Mother's Day, Mom.  I love you and miss you.

1 comment:

  1. I was sorry to learn that you weren't able to recall any past Mother's Days that were happy memories for you.

    Perhaps it's enough to remember those special things about your mom, even though they aren't connected to Mother's Day.

    I can well imagine she's sending hugs back to you........