Yesterday was Mother's Day. It is not one of my favorite days of the year because I lost my Mom almost 10 years ago.
Yesterday I had lunch with a friend who had also lost his mother a number of years ago. We discussed our mothers and how we dealt with the day. He challenged me to recall a happy Mother's Day. And sadly I could not remember one. I could remember a Mother's Day that was really sad but not a happy one.
The realization of not being able to remember a happy Mother's Day was disheartening. It is possible that because of mental issues that I deal with could have buried some of my memories too deep for me to recall. Or they could have masked the good memories.
I have no doubt that I loved my Mom very much and I miss her deeply. Yesterday I asked God to give my Mom a hug from me and tell her that I love her and miss her.
I'm not sure if I want to dig around in my memories of past Mother's Day. Maybe it is just best to think of today and let God deal with my past.
I'm just glad I had the mother I did and thank God that He knew which mom was the best for me.
Belated Happy Mother's Day, Mom. I love you and miss you.